I grew up in a religious family that attended church regularly. I was taught to do good and you will go to heaven, but if you’re not so good you’ll be sent to “purgatory”. I didn’t understand the bible and attending church was like a routine to me.
As I look back on my life in recent years, it was a normal life. I had a job, family, friends, and was in a relationship. Although I was engaged in an immoral relationship, I insisted on what I wanted because of my selfishness and stubbornness. But as time passed I realized I had no peace in my heart.
When I came back to Singapore and found a job, my auntie invited me to attend church and bible study. God had given me a lot of chances to commit myself to Him, but due to my disobedience, lack of willingness to know Him I didn’t surrender. I thought I was capable on my own.
I remembered while still praying to God, for direction, He lead me to Gospel Light. The first day I set foot in Gospel Light, I still had many doubts and insecurities. I felt like I didn’t deserve to be in this place. Although I knew this is exactly where God wanted me to be. In this church, God blessed me with His wonderful people, who embraced me like family and never grew weary of reaching out to me.
A few months ago, God brought me to my knees. I felt like although at many points in my life I turned my back on Him, His hand was always extended towards me. God has given me a peace in my heart I cannot describe, the way He has opened up my eyes to my past, the desire He has put in my heart to just know Him more. I’m just honored and consider myself extremely blessed to have another opportunity to serve Jesus with all my heart.
I have found contentment, hope, peace, and joy that I have never experienced in my entire life. Although I have a lot of growing and maturing to do, Christ sanctifies my life, and leads me on.